Dugogodišnja borba

Studentica na Instagramu dokumentuje svoj oporavak od anoreksije kako bi pomogla drugima

Klix.ba

06.02.2018.

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06.02.2018.

Studentica kojoj su ljekari predviđali samo nekoliko sedmica žitova zbog teškog oblika anoreksije koristi društvene mreže kako bi promovisala samopouzdanje i inspirisala druge da se posvete oporavku. Connie Inglis (23) iz Leedsa s anoreksijom se bori od desete godine i u devet godina je tri puta hospitalizirana.

Prije dvije godine primljena je u bolnicu s težinom petogodišnjeg djeteta.

In both of these photographs I am the same weight. I am a 'healthy' bmi. So if we're going with what the media tells us about anorexia, this means I wasn't fighting a daily battle in either of these pictures... right? Wrong! 🌸 In the picture on the left I'm 13. I was weight restored still on an ng. But even at a bmi of 20 the thoughts still plagued me. I still couldn't eat. But I'd look just fine without the tube right? 🌸 The picture on the right was taken a couple of months ago. I'm exactly the same weight as the first picture but I'm at home, in recovery and managing to fight the majority of the thoughts that come along. 🌸 My point is that you don't have to be stick thin to be suffering. You don't have to be on the verge of death to be in pain. Your bmi means NOTHING when an eating disorders involving. If need help, it doesn't matter what you weigh, it doesn't matter what you look like. You should never be turned away because you don't fit into the 'typical' anorexia box. You should never feel like you aren't sick enough. You should never be made to feel like your illness isn't 'as bad' as someone else's. 🌸 If anyone is struggling, I'm with you every step of the way. If your fighting and screaming but nobody hears you, I'm here to listen. If someone tells you you can't have an eating disorder because your 'not thin enough' tell them to go f**k themselves because they don't have a clue! 🌸 Everyone deserves help. Everyone deserves for there struggles to be herd. Eating disorders do not discriminate. Bmi doesn't define you. You are never alone💜💜💜 #positivebeatsperfect

A post shared by Connie💜🦄Positive.beats.perfect (@my_life_without_ana) on Jul 23, 2017 at 11:12am PDT

"Nije mi bilo stalo ni do života ni do smrti, bilo mi je svejedno. Samo sam htjela izgubiti na težini. Došla sam u situaciju da boravak u bolnici nije bio dovoljno dobar, jedino što bi zadovoljilo moju anoreksiju je prestanak rada moga srca", kazala je Connie.

No shame in this belly game👆🏻 💜 My tummy has always been the part of my body that I criticise the most. The part I tried the hardest to get rid of. 💜 When I was little I was told that if my tummy stuck out a bit that meant I was too fat, and therefore not beautiful. 💜 I was told that girls where only pretty if they had a flat stomach. 💜 Sorry I call bullshit! 💜 Nobody is 'pretty' because of 1 stupid part of there appearance. Nobody is defined by how much or little fat they carry on their tummy. 💜 People are beautiful. In the moment they smile. In the love for there families. In the way they look after others. In the way they hold themselves. In every way possible!!!!!! 💜 We are beautiful because we say that we are. Not because society tells us we're not! 💜 And if your not feeling beautiful today. If your looking down at your tummy wanting to do anything it takes to get rid of it... STOP! 🤚🏻 Look in the mirror and repeat after me: I AM BEAUTIFUL BECAUSE IM ME 💜 I am the only version of me and that in itself is beautiful #positivebeatsperfect

A post shared by Connie💜🦄Positive.beats.perfect (@my_life_without_ana) on Aug 1, 2017 at 11:52am PDT

Međutim, sada želi pomoći drugima koji imaju isti problem, poručujući im da uvijek može biti bolje, bez obzira na sve poteškoće. Svoj oporavak dokumentuje na Instagramu gdje ima 87.000 pratilaca i nada se će na taj način pokazati drugima da trebaju voljeti svoje tijelo.

Im finally seeing the light!!!! TW eating disorders 💙 💙 Firstly I want to say this is not a look how skinny I was or look how well I've done post. This is to hopefully show you that no matter how lost you are in your own head, it is possible to escape! It is possible to find happiness again!!! 💙 💙 Secondly you do not have to be this shape, size colour or gender for your struggles to matter! You are always deserving of help if you are struggling!!! 💙 💙 Last year I was sectioned under the mental health act. I was so ill I was doing everything I could think of to not take in ANYTHING. I had given up. My eating disorder had taken over and I wanted to die. So I was sectioned and forced to get better. I was put on an ng tube. I was forced to watch as the scale went up every week and I could do nothing about it. (Not that I didn't try) Last year I was a mess. 💙 💙 But the people I loved stayed by me. My best friends and my boyfriend came to see me all the time and my parents where there every day. They where there to remind me to try. So I did. For the first time in my life I realised that I loved these people more than my ed. so I fought, I fought like hell!!! 💙 💙 I'm not telling you this for sympathy or to diminish anyone's struggles, (everyone's struggle is valid!!! No matter how long it takes!!) I’ve been in this for 10 years now and I still struggle but I can see the light now. I know that the fight is worth it. I know that the scales don’t mean a thing. And I want you to know that it is possible!!!!! It is possible to get out of the darkness! No not all my problems have gone away. Yes I still have the thoughts. But I am strong enough now to resist! Keep going! You can get through this hell and I will be with you every step of the way!!! We can do this together!!!! 💙💛💜 (No questions about weight please!!) #positivebeatsperfect

A post shared by Connie💜🦄Positive.beats.perfect (@my_life_without_ana) on Oct 12, 2017 at 10:49am PDT

"Stvarno volim pomagati drugima i mislim da je ljudima, posebno onima koji prolaze kroz oporavak, važno da shvate da nisu sami u svojoj borbi. Mislim da me ljudi prate jer sam iskrena i ne pokazujem samo pozitivne strane oporavka. Pokazujem i negativne strane", rekla je Connie.

A lot of people have asking me how I did it. How I recovered so fast... the truth is, I didn't. An eating disorder is deceptive and horrible. It lures you in and makes you believe that you'd be nothing without it, you wouldn't survive without it. I used to believe my ed was my best friend but all it ever wanted to do was kill me. In the picture on the left I was 13 and had already been struggling for a long time. 💜 There are 8 years between these photos and in that time I have weight restored and relapsed countless times. I have tormented myself mentally and physically. I told myself I was horrible and unworthy of happiness. I have hated my body. I have starved it, I have hurt it, I have left unmeasurable damage. THIS IS NOT MY LIFE ANYMORE!! After 10 years I finally decided I loved my family and friends more than my illness. I decided that I wasn't to blame for everything that had happened. I decided that I deserved to be happy!!! So I finally let go... 💜 If your still struggling I am with you every step of the way. If you've been going through this for lifetimes and feel useless when you see others getting better, I completely understand. If you feel like your Ed is still taking care of you, I understand but I promise there are better things out there!!! If your not taken seriously because you don't fit into the typical anorexia box, your struggles are worthy and you deserve to be helped!!! If your turned away because of you weight, skin colour or gender, FIGHT LIKE HELL!! You deserve to be heard!!! 💜 I'm not telling you this for sympathy or to diminish anyone's struggles!! Everyone's struggles are valid!! But I want you to know that it is possible!! Yes I still have bad days. I still struggle but I'm stronger now and know that I deserve to be happy! Keep going, it's going to be the hardest thing you ever do but it's so worth it! Fight like hell and I'll be fighting with you!! #positivebeatsperfect

A post shared by Connie💜🦄Positive.beats.perfect (@my_life_without_ana) on Feb 1, 2017 at 12:51pm PST

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